Missed Space...

Some leaves swept across the platform as I stepped forward
The wind whistling off tune taking an effort to get the leaves to dance along
The leaves rustled with the dust but momentarily made no move
I gazed at the night skies with hope
Twas dark and cloudy where stars were out of sight
The railway lines stretched far marking dark lines
The benches were empty and I rested on one with weary
The shrill cold wind whistled again giving me goosebumps all over

I tightened and folded my arms against myself

Brushing my hands along my arms to form heat

'Hush, baby' I heard him whispering in my ear

'Twas ticklish and a chill ran down my spine 

As I felt his strong arm around my shoulders drawing me closer

That soothing warmth that lights up my heart 'n soul

Just like a cuppa hot chocolate brewing with hazelnut flavour on a dull rainy day

I closed my eyes and rested my head by his neck under the chin; the cozy spot

'Wham!' 'twas the train horn screaming almost deafening my ears

I looked to my left and found an empty space

Whew... I heaved a heavy sigh drowning in an ocean of thoughts

No one to soothe me nor sing me to sleep

No one to check up on me nor to say e'rything's just alright

Sweet memories whistling but leaving a missed space

A hollow inside my heart seeking for hope and simple smiles

Oh I miss him and his ways.. I was breathing in pain

Just a tear in the corner of my eye, not wanting to face the world

Hoping things will turn out alright at the end...

Addicted... forever...

The warmth of your scent
The pulse of your heartbeat pounding against mine
The rhythm of your breathing in sync with mine
And the touch still sending chills down my spine
A flame is dancing in glee in my heart
Tingling to be brought to life deep in my soul
Didn't realize 'm hard core addicted
Until I hit myself hard on the ground
My heart's aching foreseeing what's coming
A soul about to shatter; to pieces close to dust
For every atom is shaking and shivering so swift
Longing for just a little more dose of the drug
Why do I fall for the forbidden nectar
Can't handle this any longer
A feeling too good to be true
A dream I never want to wake up from
It's addiction for a drug that wasn't s'pposed to be tasted
I want the wind to break through my soul
To feel the fire gushing through my blood

And make a futile effort to soothe me

But only a silent tear making its way down
'cause I've broken the rules again oh save me...

-Wondering why way of life has to be so hard...-

 every word, every pause, every sigh.. truly meant... recollecting memories shared..

Friends Forever and For always, and even longer...

You're a gift of life
A chance I was gifted...
To see the meaning of friendship
To understand and to be understood...
I could always open up and be myself
And always count on you to walk by my side...
Knowing me and coping up my ways
For believing in me and always keeping faith...
You're the sweetness of friendship
Sharing smiles, laughter and those magical moments...
It's a charm that makes my soul blossom
To know that you'll always be there...
My chum you shall be
Friends forever and for always... and even longer...

Dedicating my thoughts to my dearest chums of all times Era & Charmz...
Nothing's forgotten, nothing's ever forgotten...
30.June.2014...

Temptation...

Whew... I heave a sigh
After another glance at the screen
No text.. no call.. missed in the mobile
What's got on to me
Why this temptation
Urging me to ring back and checkup
Knowing that things won't change
besides there're no feelings for me either
It's just plain mercy and sympathy I'm going through
Nothing more meant to be
I know.. just that it's hard to believe
And convince my heart
That's beating at an off rhythm
In doubt.. in case things would find a twist
Seeking if there's some flick of light in pitch darkness
Oh why it's always trouble
That my temptation seeks
Hopeless and gone all reckless
Not knowing what lies ahead
Is nothing but the deep tides
That silently drown and take one's breath away
Temptation oh I wish it never existed
Or perhaps deep inside 'tis my heart not ready to accept
That 'tis just a shadow I seek.. and nothing more...

-Wishing things would've been simpler, and not harder...-
Dated 17.07.2014

Waiting game

he said he's got feelings for another
Asked me if twas alright with me
I smiled back with mixed feelings
And whispered that's nice and I'm happy for him
Felt something inside died and lost
Didn't expect it would happen so fast
I saw my life falling apart
Now having lost in the waiting game
Remembered the sparks of moments we shared
The secret codes and the sweet music
how he played the heart strings when I was down
That heart melting voice always soothing
And the warmth of his heart he shared

All lost memories never to be brought back to life again
No one to play the cheerful strings 

Or to whisper in the ear 'everything will be alright'

And send a chill run down my spine
Not anyone anymore to keep me warm inside

Now that my heart's set on fire
No one to hear me cry, nor feel me sigh
It was a sweet wine of fantasy

For a moment how close I was to eternity

And now so distant and never within reach
'twas the endless waiting game 

The more you keep things to yourself
Wanting for more, hoping something better will find your way

But then all dreams shattered into pieces

Like ice cream stolen off the cone down to your toes

Nothing to indulge, but the cool melting cream left in the cone

Still dripping down the fingers giving goosebumps

Leaving only traces of flicks of moments that are gone forever
Such an empty feeling, hollow and so hard to cope up
Being lost in this waiting game

Not for a moment but forever...

07.April.2014... Lost a forbidden love forever... but wishing him and his love long lasting love...

Sketches from Childhood

Posted some of my old poetry and short stories composed and written in my childhood days... Hoping to post more of my oldies and new writings soon!

A Glimpse at the years to come

I stared at the clock above the black board lazily and stretched my arms across my desk. I studied my eyes across the classroom and my colleagues were busy, roaring paper rockets all over the class, splashing water, scribbling cartoons on paper and engaging in other work of stupidity. Professor Grimmwich, our lecturer for Physics was carrying out his lecture on ‘Time Dimensions’ with his invention beside him, which he used to call the ‘time machine.’ He was bringing about the relationship of miracles of time and science. It was total nonsense that such contrasting factors could be brought together for comparison – science and enchantment. I strongly had my perspective that one could never travel across time, since I believed time is just another dimension. Time stated 1158h on the clock and I rested my chin on my arms heaving a restless sigh.

The professor then suddenly called me front and I stepped to him thinking what sort of a charm would he perform next – disappear me to the time of apes? It was simply ridiculous. But each time I argued with him, he was bringing out all concepts which are still in experimental process, to give birth for hope to my personal views regarding time. He was in depth of his assumptions that time is a valuable dimension of use, once we get to know its capacity. Professor Grimmwich once again reminded us about the ‘black holes’ in space where particles around the black hole get absorbed in to it and as you are transferred to another location of the universe you find that the time too has changed across the black hole. Well, yet we are not entirely aware of these black holes though scientists believe that they do exist in the universe struggling with very high energy. Also we have heard that once you travel in speeds close to that of light, your aging get retarded as it had been for the astronauts in spaceships. Paranormal and confusing situations are in existence, for which the scientists are in search of clues. But Professor Grimmwich was another time traveler for me as in the tale ‘time machine.’

So as I went to him before the classroom, he placed his remote-controller-like-time machine equipment on my palm and told to operate it. As I switched it on, a foggy smoke covered my surrounding and I couldn’t make out any thing or person around me other than the fumes. Just as I thought it was totally nonsense as I was right there in my classroom standing right beside the professor. I smirked but then after a few seconds only I was capable enough of understanding what has really happened. The entire classroom was filled with the utmost silence and everyone was motionless as if a movie clip has been paused. I drew close to my professor and swayed my hand alongside his eyes, but there wasn’t a single movement. Every one was freeze still. The surprising fact was that, the time on the clock was held stating 1158h. I walked along my class and my friends were like statues. The paper rockets were on air as if trapped by some gravitation alike in the universe. I tried to touch one of the paper rockets but it was sharp as a blade and my finger ended up in bleeding. Maybe you need an extraordinary force to change position of objects within unknown time intervals. My eyes caught the sight of still splashes of water over air in the classroom, but didn’t intend to go through further injuries. The colleagues were wearing still expressions as some had their mouths open wide and making funny faces. I went back before the classroom and took hold of the professor’s time machine equipment and pressed on its button, without the slightest thought of where I will end up next minute. Once again the smoke was around me and I found my classroom visible once again just as it used to be, with all the movements taking place. I glimpsed at the clock in a swish and was lost in confusion to find that it stated the same time 1158h. Everything took place within the minute itself. The professor questioned me for my experiences and I showed him an uncomfortable guilty smile as I walked back to my desk empty minded. I found my finger bleeding and the paper rocket having a slight blood stain due to my weird experience across time. Everything was back to normal – my colleagues, their nasty work and the classroom itself. I took seat at my desk and gave one last stare at the clock hanging at the top of the wall. The time was 1159h. Was it a flash back I had just a minute ago? Or is time really capable enough of being halt and can we travel across time? I was lost in the middle of perplexing questions which were left alone unsolved or disturbed. Time - is that the answer for all our mysteries or should we go ahead…

- The End -

Written date: 28/ 08/ 2006