Waiting game

he said he's got feelings for another
Asked me if twas alright with me
I smiled back with mixed feelings
And whispered that's nice and I'm happy for him
Felt something inside died and lost
Didn't expect it would happen so fast
I saw my life falling apart
Now having lost in the waiting game
Remembered the sparks of moments we shared
The secret codes and the sweet music
how he played the heart strings when I was down
That heart melting voice always soothing
And the warmth of his heart he shared

All lost memories never to be brought back to life again
No one to play the cheerful strings 

Or to whisper in the ear 'everything will be alright'

And send a chill run down my spine
Not anyone anymore to keep me warm inside

Now that my heart's set on fire
No one to hear me cry, nor feel me sigh
It was a sweet wine of fantasy

For a moment how close I was to eternity

And now so distant and never within reach
'twas the endless waiting game 

The more you keep things to yourself
Wanting for more, hoping something better will find your way

But then all dreams shattered into pieces

Like ice cream stolen off the cone down to your toes

Nothing to indulge, but the cool melting cream left in the cone

Still dripping down the fingers giving goosebumps

Leaving only traces of flicks of moments that are gone forever
Such an empty feeling, hollow and so hard to cope up
Being lost in this waiting game

Not for a moment but forever...

07.April.2014... Lost a forbidden love forever... but wishing him and his love long lasting love...