Urge..

Wish I could count the number of times;
The times I took the phone to call
To ask if we could meet up for one last coffee
But held it in, or things would be harder for you then...
The times I took the phone to text
To wish you a good night's sleep with tender dreams
But held it in, or night would be longer for you then...
The times I wish I could tell
How hard it is to take things easy and smile
But harder I tried, for stronger you would be then...
Saw a conversation of us
I took the phone to go through
But realized twas in a dream of mine...

I close my eyes sometimes

And breathe in the sweet scent of your breath

That still sends a chill down my spine...
For the times we've spent, the sparks we've shared
Not to forget the sweet smiles we cherished
I shall hold this in, so you could move on easier then...
Whole of my soul is craving for that chemistry
For the warmth, the current, the rhythm my love
Oh those nostalgic moments are all coming back to me...
The urge for whole of your soul
To live another second, a flash or a moment
For i could hear your soul's silent call to be with mine...
Oh, we shouldn't get carried away
I hear you whispering, 'n me affirming
For the best of both I know...
So here's a promise not in dreams but reality darling my dear
Now 'n for always I will remember us
in memory of a sacred chemistry
'N we'll survive this together 'n be stronger once more...

That Feeling...

I felt twas all worth it
Losing control and letting go of boundaries for him
Never felt that safer
Never felt so happier in life
For he showed me the stars and led all the way up to the milkyway
Haven't felt so heartwarming
With the soothing touch of a heavenly kind
That feeling I don't want to let go of
The tingling flame dancing inside
My soul wouldn't mind igniting with yours
Through that black hole between us, sparked by the current
Leaving us with that feeling of an endless bond
A beautiful feeling called love.. Wrapped in the breeze of affection, sprinkled with magical dusts of excitement, shaded with mighty-oh caring, and blessed with age-old trust
That feeling I want to wake up every morning to and sleep cuddle the night with
Only you would know that art of painting that feeling to bring it to life in reality my love...

Don't you say I don't need you

You say 'You don't need me'..

Do I not? Why do you feel so? Do you not feel me?

Oh no, dear; not a moment, hear my thoughts

Silence doesn't mean 'm accepting all doings

Smiles and laughing out loud don't mean 'm all in glee

Getting on with things doesn't mean I've forgotten

Don't you say that I don't care or I've no feelings

You've no idea of the broken soul inside 

The lost spirit dying inside missing that warmth

That tingling flame to dance again and be in flight

That urge to taste the sweet nectar and feel the rhythm

To hear that daring heart beating to soothe mine 

And worry of no other for time has ceased its ticking in favor

I still wonder why we took this path of different tracks

I know 'twas my call, but din't we have reasons?

I want to take back what was said, coz you mean so much

Wishing I could turn back time and be lost in our own worlds

Wishing that we'd cross our paths and meet in time

So we could catch things up and be once back on track 

For Nothing's forgotten my dear, nothing will ever be...

Missed Space...

Some leaves swept across the platform as I stepped forward
The wind whistling off tune taking an effort to get the leaves to dance along
The leaves rustled with the dust but momentarily made no move
I gazed at the night skies with hope
Twas dark and cloudy where stars were out of sight
The railway lines stretched far marking dark lines
The benches were empty and I rested on one with weary
The shrill cold wind whistled again giving me goosebumps all over

I tightened and folded my arms against myself

Brushing my hands along my arms to form heat

'Hush, baby' I heard him whispering in my ear

'Twas ticklish and a chill ran down my spine 

As I felt his strong arm around my shoulders drawing me closer

That soothing warmth that lights up my heart 'n soul

Just like a cuppa hot chocolate brewing with hazelnut flavour on a dull rainy day

I closed my eyes and rested my head by his neck under the chin; the cozy spot

'Wham!' 'twas the train horn screaming almost deafening my ears

I looked to my left and found an empty space

Whew... I heaved a heavy sigh drowning in an ocean of thoughts

No one to soothe me nor sing me to sleep

No one to check up on me nor to say e'rything's just alright

Sweet memories whistling but leaving a missed space

A hollow inside my heart seeking for hope and simple smiles

Oh I miss him and his ways.. I was breathing in pain

Just a tear in the corner of my eye, not wanting to face the world

Hoping things will turn out alright at the end...

Addicted... forever...

The warmth of your scent
The pulse of your heartbeat pounding against mine
The rhythm of your breathing in sync with mine
And the touch still sending chills down my spine
A flame is dancing in glee in my heart
Tingling to be brought to life deep in my soul
Didn't realize 'm hard core addicted
Until I hit myself hard on the ground
My heart's aching foreseeing what's coming
A soul about to shatter; to pieces close to dust
For every atom is shaking and shivering so swift
Longing for just a little more dose of the drug
Why do I fall for the forbidden nectar
Can't handle this any longer
A feeling too good to be true
A dream I never want to wake up from
It's addiction for a drug that wasn't s'pposed to be tasted
I want the wind to break through my soul
To feel the fire gushing through my blood

And make a futile effort to soothe me

But only a silent tear making its way down
'cause I've broken the rules again oh save me...

-Wondering why way of life has to be so hard...-

 every word, every pause, every sigh.. truly meant... recollecting memories shared..

Friends Forever and For always, and even longer...

You're a gift of life
A chance I was gifted...
To see the meaning of friendship
To understand and to be understood...
I could always open up and be myself
And always count on you to walk by my side...
Knowing me and coping up my ways
For believing in me and always keeping faith...
You're the sweetness of friendship
Sharing smiles, laughter and those magical moments...
It's a charm that makes my soul blossom
To know that you'll always be there...
My chum you shall be
Friends forever and for always... and even longer...

Dedicating my thoughts to my dearest chums of all times Era & Charmz...
Nothing's forgotten, nothing's ever forgotten...
30.June.2014...

Temptation...

Whew... I heave a sigh
After another glance at the screen
No text.. no call.. missed in the mobile
What's got on to me
Why this temptation
Urging me to ring back and checkup
Knowing that things won't change
besides there're no feelings for me either
It's just plain mercy and sympathy I'm going through
Nothing more meant to be
I know.. just that it's hard to believe
And convince my heart
That's beating at an off rhythm
In doubt.. in case things would find a twist
Seeking if there's some flick of light in pitch darkness
Oh why it's always trouble
That my temptation seeks
Hopeless and gone all reckless
Not knowing what lies ahead
Is nothing but the deep tides
That silently drown and take one's breath away
Temptation oh I wish it never existed
Or perhaps deep inside 'tis my heart not ready to accept
That 'tis just a shadow I seek.. and nothing more...

-Wishing things would've been simpler, and not harder...-
Dated 17.07.2014